Ecstasy

​It all started with a bright idea of a turn-around trip to sin city.

What better way to celebrate life, good friends, and a day off work than Las Vegas.

Bright lights lit up the sky, colorful characters roamed the streets, and I’m talking everyone are out trying to have a good time! ​

She started as a distant image, and then we shared a smile.

Never have I ever felt the warmth and closeness like that just after eye contact and the exchange of a blow pop.

“Life is made up of small moments like these,” she said and left my life just as fast as she entered my being. ​

Months later our paths cross again in the city of sin, and this time she wasn’t getting out of my reach.

My fingers tingled, her smile brightened, our eyes locked.

Warmth shot down my spine as electricity flew through my veins.

As I leaned in, “Don’t hurt me ok” she said.

“Never” I replied.

In the moment I left myself completely vulnerable, lost all inhibition, and only cared about one thing… Her.

We kissed and I was hooked, pure Ecstasy.

Our lips locked, tongues crossed, hands held, and hearts beating close enough so that we can feel each other’s pulse.

​There was something special going on, and I couldn’t put a finger to it.

From experience I don’t try to explain the moment while in the moment, but have learned to fully immerse myself to appreciate what is truly going on.

And then we took off. ​

She was something out of a movie, our connection was too real.

Think of your perfect girl; her smell, hair, eyes, smile, morals, values, she finished not my sentences but my thoughts.

Even in bed there was no comparison, our bodies just fit and that was the peak.

Late nights sharing stories became a regular, and there was nothing more interesting than the words coming out of her mouth.

Each story blew my mind a little more; admiration and love continued to grow.

Everything I had been looking for just living in a small two bedroom capsule in Las Vegas.

When we were together life was easy, simple, nothing else mattered but our happiness together.

​But for every high there is a low, just didn’t see this low exploding so quickly.

When we were apart, I questioned everything about her.

The same thing I came to love about her, were my biggest fears.

Seeing her every other week just seemed like a Band-Aid, to a solution that couldn’t be fixed.

I saw the end nearing, but had no way of stopping it.

Like an avalanche coming your way, the best things to do is run and hope you make it out alive and not get hurt.

​Then it happened, I woke up.

It wasn’t a dream, but it might as well have been.

As cold as it sounds, I was just dropped off.

No goodbye, I’m sorry, or see you tomorrow, I just didn’t exist to her anymore.

Like a $15 pill of Ecstasy she came and gone.

I enjoyed the ride because that’s all you can do, but now it’s time to move on.